Be Objective

Remaining objective is something that has been drilled into my being since I sat in my first journalism class and decided that was going to be my career.  When I've come across an article or a story that's clearly not balanced or objective, I get angry and frustrated.  So you would think that because of this reaction, I would be able to remain objective in situations that happen in my everyday life right? Wrong.  Today I had a chance to remain objective and I failed.  I gave it my best shot and it just didn't happen.  What sucks is just like I feel let down as a reader of a completely biased story, it's possible that the other person in my situation felt let down by me.

As I've been thinking about what happened today and my life after gradation (there really is a connection), I began to kick myself and be afraid for my future career and relationships, because my attempted objectiveness is completely overtaken by how easily my emotions rule.  Sometimes my emotions react even before my brain can and it starts this fast-spinning, out of control feeling and no matter what I do, I can't stop it.  I could say that it's because I'm a girl, but that's not it, I just don't have enough strength (?) to just push that aside and think clearly.  It's caused, still causing, and will cause problems and that scares me.  Am I in the wrong field?  Will I drive people away? Will I get fired? There's just so many questions that I'm wrestling with.

Today has been difficult, I feel like I failed a really important test or something to that effect.  Anyone know of some classes I can take that will teach me objectiveness in my personal life?  Wouldn't that be nice...

Anyways, I realize that this is a downer post but it feels good to write and clear my throbbing head of all these questions.  Does anyone have any plans for this weekend?  The girls and I are still trying to find something to do.  I would tell you to be safe and don't take candy from strangers, but that doesn't work at all for this weekend (Ha!), so just be safe and have fun!

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BYOP

Bring your own pumpkin night was a hit at our house! Here's some pictures.

I'm seriously loving living with Hannah and Kacey and I can't believe how much happier I am this semester!  Hope your weekends were amazing and that your week goes smoothly!

Tonight I was out to dinner with my lovely girls for Karen's birthday.  We went to BJ's Brewhouse and while we were there I got a chance to watch part of the Giants/Phillies game.  I couldn't help but notice that no one in the restaurant or bar area was very excited about this game.  Honestly, why would they be?  The Angels weren't playing. The Dodgers weren't playing.  So why would they care?  Why would I care since I'm not a baseball fan?

Well...cause it made me miss home.  If I had been at a BJ's up in Monterey or Salinas or San Jose, there would have been cheering and clapping all around me as I tried to eat and have fun with my friends. 

Funny how the oddest things can make you homesick.  Congratulations to all you Giant fans out there!

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October 23

Today my baby sister Becca turns 17!

She brings a ton of joy into my life with her laughter and love.

Happy Birthday sweet one, I love you.

 

"Every Word You Say, I Think I Should Write Down"

Those are lyrics from the song "Paperweight", they're featured in the movie "Dear John", and I love it.  I have this habit of not being able to study or work in complete silence, so today I stuck it in and have enjoyed half watching it.  One of the perks is that if I'm not paying too much attention to it, I likely won't cry. 

It's Wednesday, which means I only have to make it through tonight and tomorrow and this week will be over.  Thank goodness!  I'm taking a short break (obviously) and all I have left to do tonight is write out my note cards so I won't stumble around too much while I'm talking tomorrow (hopefully). 

I miss home a lot today.  Corinne keeps bugging me about not being able to go home with her this weekend and I really wish I could!  It'd be so nice, but it's still looking like the soonest I'll be able to go is Thanksgiving/my birthday.  Alright, I guess I'm gonna get back to work now...

Thunder Storms and Rain

Today I got to listen to it thunder pretty much for the entire day! I was probably the only CSULB student walking around smiling as it started to downpour and lightning was cracking overhead.  I love storms and I love this weather!  It needs to stay exactly like this until at least March of next year.

The girls and I are staying warm in our apartment by lighting our fire and eating chicken pot pies.  My hell week is still going on, although it got a little easier because I met with my group and knocked out a midterm.  All that's left are my two group presentations on Thursday which I'll finish and perfect tomorrow.  Hopefully both of them will go super smooth.  Hope you guys are having a good week! Tomorrow is hump day and we'll be that much closer to the weekend!

 

 Photo provided by: flickr.com

Hell Week

This weekend has officially started my hell week.  I have more homework, presentations, and tests this week than I will any other week this semester.  I'm quite honestly freaking out, but I've reached that point where I'm too stressed and too tired to keep studying or trying tonight.  Not to mention that physically my body is aching and emotionally all I want to do is cry.

Hope everyone had a better weekend than I did!

Four

I was reading Meg's blog today and came across this and decided to do it since I can't think of anything particularly witty to write.


4 Things I Did Today: 
1. I worked and had eight clear ups by the time I had worked four hours. (I had 15 in 6 hours last night!)

2. Learned a lot about online dating for my group presentation/research paper.

3. Watched "The Fox and the Hound" for the first time in years and laughed a lot. Then watched "Lambert the Sheepish Lion" and about died laughing.

4. Check my phone for no reason more than I do normally....just wishing he would call even though it's very late.

4 Things On My To Do List:

1. Finish the mountain of homework that is all due next week tomorrow and Monday.

2. Vacuum my room and living room before the roomies get home tomorrow.

3. Do the dishes that are in the sink.

4. Rest.

4 Guilty Pleasures:

1. Reading taza's blog

2. Disney movies

3. Nicolas Spark's books...especially when men in uniform are involved.

4. Anything coffee.

4 Random Facts:

1. I don't think I dress like an adult and long for having the money to update my wardrobe.

2. If I could have anything alcoholic to drink it'd be a beer. I like it even though most people I know don't.

3. I sleep half way down my bed with my feet planted firmly on the foot board...every night.

4. The weather has been gloomy the last few days and it's made me incredibly happy.

I Can't Wait For This...

Make fun if you want, but I think it's gonna be great and I can't believe how much I like her song!

There's No Fire!!!

I thought I would share with you a particular incident that has happened to me three times since moving into our apartment!! 

My bathroom is tiny.  Super tiny, so when I take a shower with the door closed it gets very steamy and I can't see the mirror when I get out.  However, if I take a shower with the bathroom door open, way less steam which makes getting ready easier.  Make sense?

Anyways, so these three times that I've taken a shower and this incident has happened, I've been mid shampoo or, like today, mid shaving my legs and my smoke detector has started to go off.  Yes, my smoke detector!  So I've had to fly out of the shower, grab a towel, and try to shut the dang thing up, which only happens when I unplug it, three times now!

I don't understand it. There's no smoke, my room isn't super steamy, and it's just ridiculous! I'm afraid someone's gonna hear it and call the fire department for no reason.  Ah!

Just thought I would share. It's Friday so.... Happy Start to the Weekend!

 

Photo provided by: elmediofire.org

P.S. I don't think my smoke detector's cute.

Coffee Addict's Dream

 

'Nough said....

Thoughts and Such

I want to go home.

I'm jealous that Hannah gets to go home this weekend.

My baby brother turned thirteen years old a few days ago.

I'm happy we went grocery shopping.

Carmel Apple coffee creamer was a good idea in theory.

This weekend is going to be spent working and doing lots of homework.

Plane tickets should be cheaper.

Gilmore Girls makes me laugh a lot no matter how much I've watched it.

I'm tired.

PS: My sister, Candace, takes amazing pictures.

The Pike and Other Shenanigans

Last night Corinne, Kacey, Hannah, and I decided that we were going to go get some dinner out since we were all starving.  Chilis is having that amazing 2 for $20 dollars deal so we totally took advantage of it.  It was the first time we had all been out to an actual sit down dinner together and it was a lot of fun.  The Pike is a really cool place to eat and walk around, if you're in the LB area you should check it out.

Walking across the bridge.

The rest of our evening was spent at our house.  We swam in the pool, did homework, watched part of "The Swan Princesses" and then switched to "Anastasia", took pictures with fake mustaches we got at Ralph's, and laughed a lot.  I think the following picture is going to be one of my favorites. We were tired and giggly and it was awesome.

Missed Alarm and The Result

I slept through my alarm this morning.  Probably didn't have the volume up loud enough to compete with my two fans that work overtime throughout the night to keep me cool.  So no church for me today, which actually made me a little sad.  When I realized I'd never make it in time I went back to sleep for a little bit and then I got to wake up to some pretty cute text messages from my boyfriend (insert smile here).

My morning has now been spent reading some new blogs that will most likely become favorites and drinking coffee.  I would say that it's a wonderful way to spend a fall morning, but it's probably going to be eighty degrees today, so it's just a wonderful way to spend a weekend morning. Happy Sunday! 

Reading: rockstar diaries

Fall

I think it's one of my favorite seasons.  I've been looking at fall clothes online and I can't wait for this dang hot weather to end!  A few nights ago we decorated for the season/Halloween.  Is it just me or do we also have a giant "M" in the window?

Sorry for the quality, my real camera is dead.

Hope you guys have an awesome weekend! 

Published!

This morning I received some awesome text messages from my mom! I am officially a published poet in "The Chiron Review"! How awesome is that? My two poems from last semester, The Payback Dance and Midnight Music, are in their autumn 2010 edition.

I don't think I'll be able to stop smiling for awhile. Hope all of your weekends are off to an awesome start like mine!

Crazy Cleaning Lady

That is who I've become. I feel like I clean allll the time! 

I blame my mother. It's all her fault.  Either that or I really love my place and really want it to say nice and new.  Who knows!

Happy Rainy Day everyone!

 

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You Want Fries With That?

Just came home for my break to grab some food and turned on the TV to watch the morning news and still can't believe what I heard.  You think that law makers in California would have way more important things to worry about than what sort of meals fast food restaurants can include toys in! Seriously? 

Apparently in San Francisco law makers passed a law stating that fast food chains can no longer include toys with all their kid meals.  Now they can only include them in meals that have a serving of fruit or vegetables included with the meal and have less sugar, fat, and sodium.  I don't know about you, but I've kinda noticed that California isn't doing that great as a state....maybe it's just me, I dunno but, I wonder if we as a state would be in a better place if politicians and lawmakers focused on more important and less trivial issues.  What do you think?

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Eight Months

Today I had a degree advisement appointment at school.  Going into it I was super nervous because I had been navigating all of this by myself so far and there was always the possibility that I had screwed something up; however, that is not the case! I'm going to be a college graduate in eight months for sure.  I'm so excited!  Now I just have to make it through the rest of the year with good grades and lots of fun memories.

Most Magical Place on Earth...Turned Torture

Today at Rock Harbor, we heard about Chad Coltman's, one of the teaching pastors, obsession with the most magical place on earth.  He was so convincing of its awesomeness that Corinne and I just had to go there, even if it was to only get the tiniest taste of it.  So after lunch we headed over to Downtown Disney to walk around. Let me tell you, it was torture not being able to go in.  I think I'm gonna get a pass, which is actually very reasonable if you do a payment plan.  Anyways, here's some pictures from the afternoon. I love how everything is decorated for fall!

The rest of my day was spent studying for my first midterm of the semester. Yikes! Let's hope I nail it.  Have a good night everyone!

Finally

Corinne Elizabeth Walker is coming to see me in Long Beach today and we're gonna spend the weekend together. This woman has been so busy for the first month of school that we haven't really had time to hang out. I'm beyond excited to get in some best friend time!

Just Kidding

I thought of a few more things that make me incredibly happy while I was trying to fall asleep last night....

11.  Country music.

12. Church.

13. My amazing family: Dad, Mom, C.B., Becca, Matt.

14.  My amazing boyfriend James.

15.  Living with my roommates, Hannah and Kacey.